I have always admired those people who wake up motivated and pursue career paths with determination. those same people who know what they want to be when they were younger and follow those dreams without a single change in their thought process. Ya’ll have my ultimate respect.
In January 2017 I set a goal for myself to attend graduate school. I looked at my peers who I graduated from undergrad with in 2015 and how far they *seemed* to have progressed in their pursuits. I felt unmotivated. I felt unaccomplished. I believed that I should be doing more for myself and that included pursing higher education. I applied to the graduate school near us and started shouting when I got the acceptance email. I was going back to school to pursue a Master’s in Social Work.
Flash forward to the Fall of 2017. I purchased my school supplies and ordered my books. Took my school ID photo. I was very ready to start school. I chose my internship site.
Throughout the semester I met some great people. I engaged in mentally stimulating conversations about social policy and amicably discussed typically tense topics with my peers. Despite taking night classes and working long hours, I felt useful again. But, again, everyone around me seemed to know what they wanted to do. Clinician. Mental health. Children and Family Services. LQBT advocacy. and the list goes on. and there was me. sitting in the classroom wondering where my passion had gone. I was questioning everything I had heard growing up about education and the pursuit of your happiness.
I decided to leave the graduate program in December 0f 2017. Not because it was too challenging. I know that I am more than capable of completing post graduate work but I often wonder if I REALLY want to. I am taking time now to evaluate myself, my goals, and what I really want. Graduating with my BSW is one of my greatest accomplishments. My dad says he always saw me going to law school and I always laugh him off. I have looked into starting paralegal studies. Having an undergraduate degree will enable me to complete the program with less debt and ability to even work part time doing something that I am passionate about. I don’t know how plausible law school is in my future and that is okay.
until next time…take care of yourself!